Finding Father

One Man's Journey to Discover Paternal Significance

The Journey Begins…


I can’t think of a better way to celebrate the 52nd anniversary of my arrival on Planet Earth than to launch this new blog.  The truth is, I never intended to become a blogger.  As a matter of fact, I have always thought that writing a blog would be just another thing to do… that is, unless there was something important or productive that I had to say that might benefit those who would choose to read my musings.  Even so, I have never been much of a writer. I struggled terribly with writing in high school and college.   After fifty-two years of living, I have come to the place where this may be the only true forum whereby I may convey my thoughts and, in some small way, be a help to others.

Regardless of whether the blogs are read by anyone, I feel compelled to put my journey into words.  You see, of the fifty-two years I have lived here on Planet Earth, forty-eight of those have been spent without the presence of a physical father in my life.  My Dad passed away when I was only four years old, and to this day, his death has impacted my life in ways that I never would have dreamed. His story and my journey to discover it are quite complex and would take more than a couple of paragraphs to convey…which is why I have chosen this specific method of communication.

I have decided to call this blog “Finding Father – One Man’s Journey to Discover Paternal Significance.”  It will encompass two major areas of my existence.

One will be to convey the continuing life-long journey to uncover the facts surrounding the mysterious death of my father in 1965.  Within that context, I will revisit much of my childhood experiences and the challenges of growing up fatherless.  I will also tell of the blessings that have come in rediscovering my Sausedo family heritage.

The second major area will be that of my personal expressions of the trials and triumphs of my own experiences as a father to my two sons and as a husband to a most wonderful wife.  Growing up fatherless has had a tremendous impact on the way I have faced and handled both of these areas.  Now, after 52 years, it is with wonder and amazement that I look back and evaluate both of these areas of my journey, identifying incredible connections between the two.

I hope this blog accomplishes three things:

  • First, I hope people will read it.  I trust that it will be something that is worth your time and consideration.  
  • Secondly, I hope it will be meaningful to those of you who have lost your dads – maybe when you were a child just as I was, or perhaps you lost your dad later in life.   It is possible that you had a dad living with you, but your relationship with him just wasn’t what a father-child relationship could or should be.  Whatever your paternal situation, I trust that you will find lessons within my journey that will give you encouragement, inspiration and hope. 
  • Finally, it is my desire that these thoughts will not only apply to those of you who have lost fathers, but  to those of you who are fathers.  Fatherhood is one of the highest callings of a man, and the greatest example that we have of fatherhood is in the Heavenly Father, Himself. 

The connections among all of these areas have been most profound and life-changing for me, as I have tried to assemble all the pieces of my life together to create meaning and understanding.

Your feedback to these blog posts is very important to me and I would love for this to also be a forum for you to share your comments and personal stories as well.

I thank you in advance for your participation.


  1. for someone who isn’t a “writer” you do a pretty good imitation! Congrats! I’ll look forward to the installments.

  2. I am looking forward to following your journey. It is interesting to note that some of the strongest Christian fathers that I have known were like you– one that grew up without a father. My dad was one of those too. When his dad died, he and 2 brothers were placed in the Baptist childrens home and later separated into foster homes, they only saw each other one time after that. Dad had no example to follow, but became the most loving and devoted father, perhaps because he didn’t want us to experience that feeling of having no father to guide us and so it was important to him to create a stable home with the love of a father. My sister and I have often reflected on how dad’s childhood experience could have made him a bitter man, (the foster home experience) but he chose to rise above the difficulties and become a BETTER person. I am so grateful for the family example that I grew up with by having a daddy that loved me.

    • Shirley F Shelton

      July 15, 2013 at 9:27 pm

      I had the best father in this world. We may not have had the material things of this world,but all the love there was to give. I feel very emotion when I think of him. He was 84 when he died, but that was too soon. He is in Heaven and my Heart.

    • Ken Sausedo

      July 16, 2013 at 2:54 am

      Linda, thanks so much for sharing this story. My hope is that sons and daughters will find encouragement, not only by what I share, but also by stories that others like you will share.

  3. Mark and Tena Beauchamp

    July 15, 2013 at 2:33 pm

    Ken, We are looking forward to following you on your journey. You and your family have always been special to us even though we do not communicate very often. Thanks to Facebook, we have gotten to know you and your lovely family since your have become the man that you are.

    • Ken Sausedo

      July 16, 2013 at 2:52 am

      Tena, you and Mark know how I feel about you. God put you in my path at just the right time, and I will never forget the confidence you placed in me at that time in my life. Blessing to you all!

  4. Good start … Knowing you, I can see that the end result will be one of redemptive encouragement. Look forward to it. Charlie

    • Ken Sausedo

      July 16, 2013 at 2:52 am

      Charlie, you have been a true companion and compadre these last 22 years, and it sure is a blessing to have your friendship on this journey!

  5. Ken, We wish you all the best in the next endeavor, our hope is the words you write are the Fathers words, our prayer is your understanding and love of Gods will increases each and everyday.
    Much Love and prayers
    Janet and Keith..

  6. Ken li am looking forward to reading and following this journey. My husband and I had the opportunity to be in a service a good while back when you did the Acts. It is wonderful to see so many of our classmates living for The Lord. God bless you ad your family.

  7. Ken, I just came upon your blog and reading it I remembered you telling us years ago how you lost your father. I so enjoyed reading your blog and will be looking foward to following this journey with you. We will be praying for you for God to give you answers and peace in this journey. Carson & Donna

    • Ken Sausedo

      March 3, 2016 at 10:38 pm

      Thanks so much for taking the time to read the blog and for your encouraging comments. You, Carson, and Israel hold a special place in our hearts!

  8. Ken, I happened upon the post on fb about your sweet mother this evening. I grew up in North Belmont also. Most of the time on The Stowe as we called it. I have always thought very highly of your mother and her sisters. I think I recognized the last pic on the IOU Video as being made in the back yard of Catherine’s house. I never knew the story of your father. But I do remember seeing you and your brother growing up. I see your mother from time to time when she comes to pick up prescriptions at the pharmacy where I work. I am always happy when in the busy day I have just even a second to get out for behind the counter and give her a hug. I have enjoyed reading you blog this evening. Best regards, Faye Thomas Heffner. Cora Lee’s daughter.

    • Ken Sausedo

      November 16, 2017 at 8:34 am

      Faye, thank you so much for your kind comments and for taking the time to read my blog. Yes, several of those pictures of my mom were at Catherine’s house, the last one for sure. I have so many good memories of growing up on that mill hill.

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