I can’t think of a better way to celebrate the 52nd anniversary of my arrival on Planet Earth than to launch this new blog. The truth is, I never intended to become a blogger. As a matter of fact, I have always thought that writing a blog would be just another thing to do… that is, unless there was something important or productive that I had to say that might benefit those who would choose to read my musings. Even so, I have never been much of a writer. I struggled terribly with writing in high school and college. After fifty-two years of living, I have come to the place where this may be the only true forum whereby I may convey my thoughts and, in some small way, be a help to others.
Regardless of whether the blogs are read by anyone, I feel compelled to put my journey into words. You see, of the fifty-two years I have lived here on Planet Earth, forty-eight of those have been spent without the presence of a physical father in my life. My Dad passed away when I was only four years old, and to this day, his death has impacted my life in ways that I never would have dreamed. His story and my journey to discover it are quite complex and would take more than a couple of paragraphs to convey…which is why I have chosen this specific method of communication.
I have decided to call this blog “Finding Father – One Man’s Journey to Discover Paternal Significance.” It will encompass two major areas of my existence.
One will be to convey the continuing life-long journey to uncover the facts surrounding the mysterious death of my father in 1965. Within that context, I will revisit much of my childhood experiences and the challenges of growing up fatherless. I will also tell of the blessings that have come in rediscovering my Sausedo family heritage.
The second major area will be that of my personal expressions of the trials and triumphs of my own experiences as a father to my two sons and as a husband to a most wonderful wife. Growing up fatherless has had a tremendous impact on the way I have faced and handled both of these areas. Now, after 52 years, it is with wonder and amazement that I look back and evaluate both of these areas of my journey, identifying incredible connections between the two.
I hope this blog accomplishes three things:
- First, I hope people will read it. I trust that it will be something that is worth your time and consideration.
- Secondly, I hope it will be meaningful to those of you who have lost your dads – maybe when you were a child just as I was, or perhaps you lost your dad later in life. It is possible that you had a dad living with you, but your relationship with him just wasn’t what a father-child relationship could or should be. Whatever your paternal situation, I trust that you will find lessons within my journey that will give you encouragement, inspiration and hope.
- Finally, it is my desire that these thoughts will not only apply to those of you who have lost fathers, but to those of you who are fathers. Fatherhood is one of the highest callings of a man, and the greatest example that we have of fatherhood is in the Heavenly Father, Himself.
The connections among all of these areas have been most profound and life-changing for me, as I have tried to assemble all the pieces of my life together to create meaning and understanding.
Your feedback to these blog posts is very important to me and I would love for this to also be a forum for you to share your comments and personal stories as well.
I thank you in advance for your participation.